Because of you, I am at war with my family.
To keep you, I am at war with God.
To have you, I am at war with time.

Because of you, I lost everything.
To keep you, I lost myself.
To have you, I lost my sanity.

I lose my breath when your smile fades from mind.
Not knowing of where it is going sends me down to a place not recognized.
I lost my life to get you; I risked a lot of things.
To lose you now, I'd lose my everything.. with everything to gain.

You sit there knowing
that he really does care
But there's still a voice saying
that his love isn't truly there
You don't want to question
the love he has for you
But you can't help but wonder
If everything he says is true

You love his affection
and you would never push it away
But you feel like its not right
and wish he would show his love in a different way
He tells you he loves you
as he puts his emotions into action
Your mind starts to wonder if he just wants
physical satisfaction

I don't want to question your love for me
and I don't want it to go away
Show me you love me sincerely and truly
give your love to me everyday <3

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - No seporator for me

A great night, to a not so great day :]
B.M.S [18.11.08] <333

Wish we could go back in time
When I was in your arms
Your soft face and gentle hands
Keeping me from harm
The time went past
All too fast
And now I'm longing for you again
I miss seeing your face and hearing your voice
My lover, and my friend <333

Here's the deal... Start with 100% and subtract 1% for everything that you've done. Don't bother typing answers to the question....it makes it more interesting!
Then repost as _% Virgin.

1. Smoked?
2. Drank alcohol?
3. Cried when someone died?
4. Been drunk?
5. Had sex?
6. Been to a concert?
7. Given a handjob/gotten a handjob?
8. Given a blowjob/gotten a blowjob?
9. Been verbally/sexually harassed?
10. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody?



11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up?
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose?
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before?
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend?
15. Been to prom?
16. Cried at school?
17. Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store?
18. Went streaking?
19. Given or received a lap dance?
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room?



21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over?
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house?
23. Kissed a stranger?
24. Hugged a stranger?
25. Went scuba diving?
26. Driven a car?
27. Gotten an x-ray?
28. Gotten hit by a car?
29. Had a party?
30. Done serious drugs?



31. Played strip poker/darts?
32. Got paid to strip for someone?
33. Ran away from home?
34. Broken a bone?
35. Eaten sushi?
36. Bought porn?
37. Watched porn?
38. Made porn?
39. Had a crush on someone of the same sex?
40. Been in love?



41. French kissed?
42. Laughed so hard you cried?
43. Cried yourself to sleep?
44. Laughed yourself to sleep?
45. Stabbed yourself?
46. Shot a gun?
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day?
48. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours?
49. Been online for 9 consecutive hours?
50. Watched an animal die?


51. Watched a person die?
52. Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present?
53. Pranked somebody?
54. Put somebody in the hospital?
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out?
56. Kissed somebody of the same sex?
57. Dressed punk?
58. Dressed goth?
59. Dressed preppy?
60. Been to a motocross race?



61. Avoided somebody?
62. Been stalked?
63. Stalked someone?
64. Met a celebrity?
65. Played an instrument?
66. Ridden a horse?
67. Cut yourself?
68. Bungee jumped?
69. Ding dong ditched somebody?
70. Been to a wild party?



71. Got caught stealing something?
72. Kicked a guy in the balls?
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend?
74. Went out with your friend's crush?
75. Got arrested?
76. Been pregnant?
77. Babysat?
78. Been to another country?
79. Started your house on fire?
80. Had an encounter with a ghost?



81. Donated your hair to cancer patients?
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by?
83. Cried over a member of the opposite sex?
84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months?
85. Sat on your butt all day?
86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself?
87. Had a job?
88. Gotten cut from a sports team?
89. Been called a whore?
90. Danced like a whore?



91. Been mistaken for a celebrity?
92. Been in a car accident?
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes?
94. Been told you have beautiful hair?
95. Raped somebody?
96. Danced in the rain?
97. Been rejected?
98. Walked out of a restaurant without paying?
99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face?
100. Been raped?

Well this was put up by one of my friends on facebook so....

Can you name 20 people you can think of right off the top of your head? Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 20 people. *this is a lot funnier if you actually list the names first!! No cheating!!!*

1. Blair :]
2. Zachy :]
3. Peteche
4. Dan(ielle)
5. Tishca
6. Meghan
7. Chris
8. Shadz
9. Anfernee
10.Lally
11.Lianna
12.Ahmad
13.Trevor
14.Aaron
15.Dro
16.Kimmy
17.Shante
18.Richee
19.Gemma
20.Dicklick


T H E Q U E S T I O N S . .

• How did you meet 10?
From schoolio ;]

• What would you do if you had never met 6?
Ummm....I wouldn't have my twin...

• What would you do if 20 and 15 dated?
Die from the extreme gayness [X

• If you could marry either 6 or 14 who will it be?
I'll go with 14..... I like man

• Did you ever like 9?
NOPE..... I would never date brothers

• Have you ever seen 4 cry?
I have el no idea

• Would 4 and 12 make a good couple?
Possibly...

• Would number 1 and 2 make a good couple?
Lmaooo.....Shweeeetttt..... that would be sexy

• Describe 8:
complete(ly homo) goon


• Last time you saw 12?
The last day of school before the break started.

• Tell me something about 17:
LIKES TOO MUCH MAN..There i told you :]

• What's 7's favorite color?
Who knoez?......Who cares?

• What would you do if 1 just confessed they liked you?
OMG REALLY?.....kml he better like me

•When was the last time you talked to number 6?
Meghan is alive? tehe just kidding

• How do you think 19 feels about you?
she lurvs me.. i know it <333

• What’s your favorite thing about 13?
-Rolls eyes-......

• What grade is 8 in?
Grade 9

• What is 5's favorite music?
Either Gospel or....something along the lines of alicia keys and lil wayne?

• Would you ever date 3?
TOTALLY kml no homo

• Is 11 single?
Yesh she is...and she doesnt need to be with anyone.. She's MINE >=[

•What's 10's last name?
Nesbitt

• Where does 18 live?
In the supply room :]

• What do you think about 20?
LMAO!! DICKLICK NEEDS A LIFEEEEEE

• What is the best thing about 4?
She knows how to rock it out (whitely)

• What would you like to tell 16 right now?
"You need to hurry come to my house so you dont get left tomorrow"

• How did you meet 9?
Didntactually meet him yet.. does the fone count?

• What is the best and worst thing about 1?
Best = He's mine ;] <333
Worst = He always gets me upset RIGHT bfore i see him...most of the time.. not any more though soo....... idk



Elora... I want you to do your own to this... with people I know of course .....Same with you Mara


...................................................

Okai one more now?

Can you answer 51 questions about just 1 person?

Don’t change the friend half way through.

1) What is her or his name?
Blair

2) Does he or she have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
Oh Jee I hope not :]

3) Do you get along with this person all the time?
Umm... now yeh I do

4) How old is the person?
14

5) Has he/she ever cooked for you?
He might poison me

6) Is this person older than you?
Yeh by like a year or two..

7) Have you ever kissed this person?
Do people still kiss and tell?

9) Are you related to this person?
Please no

10) Are you really close to him/her?
duhhh silly head

11) Nickname?


12) Do they have a nickname for you?
Yesh... he calls me fatty

13) How many times do you talk to this person in a week?
Well this week.... Everyday <33

14) Do you think they will repost this?
i hope he never finds out

15) Could you live with this person?
Hm......I'll get back to you on that

16) Why did you pick this person?
Dont question me >=[

18) How long have you known this person?
Likeeeeee arounndddddd 8 months maybe?

19) Have you ever been to the mall with this person?
Nope...

21) If you ever moved away would you miss this person?
OF COURSE.. duh

23) Have you ever done something really stupid or illegal with this person?
Stupid?.. yes ...almost got caught?...yes .. gonna do it again?..... yes ....

24) Do you know everything about this person?
Nope. working on it though

25) Would you date this persons’ sibling?
nooooo......anfernee.... not my type of guy and like i said... dont date a bf's brother

26) Have you ever made something with this person?
yeshh good love [in bed] lmaooo i joke i joke.... Elora dont catch no feelings!! JOKE

29) Have you eaten breakfast with this person?
Nuh uh...

33) Have you ever worn this person’s clothes?
dont remember :S

34) Does this person wear your clothes?
A guy in a girl's clothes is totally gay.. perfect for him

36) Have you ever heard this person sing?
yes.... and he needs to never try that again

38) Do you and this person have a saying?
Mmmm... i dont think so

39) Do you know this persons Myspace password?
Who still goes on that thing they need to shut it down or something

41) Have you and this person ever gotten into a fight that lasted more than 2 weeks?
Nope..usually make up rather quickly =]

44.) Have you and this person gone clubbing?
yes we love to take clubs and beat the snot out of ashton... lol im too young to go clubbing....FAIL

45) Do you know how to make this person feel happy?
Kinda... he claims i always make him happy so i guess so =] <333

46) Do you and this person talk alot?
Lately yesh

47) Do you like this person?
Heck no
tehe <33

49) Have you and this person got into a fist fight?
Well me trying to not get hit by his fists counts lol Elora im joking... but he does lik to beat me up >=[

50) Do you want to go out with this person?
Do you know this is the second last question?

51) Do you want to be friends with them forever?
I want to be more than that- for longer than forever =] <333

I just felt like making a new journal entry..... Shut up Im bored

Well I havent been updating with any work because well..... I havent been doing any work only little doodles...

9 Random things about me:

1.) I like chocolate
2.) My phone is dying
3.) Im drawing a dude playing the sax atm... shibby
4.) I was trying to get food out from between my teeth and my gums are sensitive so they started bleeding.. it still hurts
5.) My name "Dyah" means bird in hebrew.. I think it's hebrew.. its spelled one letter different though.
6.) Im talking to my orange friend Ahmad
7.) I like singing along with commercials... word for word
8.) Drawing, painting, and writing poems are my way of expressing myself.
9.) I only wanted to go to nine because I felt like getting to a random number.


Oh and Elora this song Im listening to reminds me of Blair.. listen to it